today.

today is your birthday. i want to acknowledge it, let you know that i remember, which of course i do, but the thought of wishing you anything with ‘happy’ in it makes me feel sick and my eyes water. i don’t want to feel like this, so adverse to your happiness. i’ve spent all day trying to fight biology, trying to find the words to wish you something, something good. but the words don’t come and time keeps going and soon it won’t be your birthday anymore. what then? 

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  1. flannelfriction said: this weekend is his wedding… what then indeed
  2. thetealord said: you have such a beautiful way with words <3
  3. enjoyduane said: Not liking because of what it may seem you’re going through. Liking because you’re sharing and being transparent.
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